Today, June 2, 2013, I spent the day visiting the Legon interdenominational Church. Amidst a waning and somewhat cynical belief in the intention of Churches/denominations to remain true to God’s word and its preservation, I sought out this haven in which I was told there was a commitment to sound doctrine and theologizing. All that is not the thrust of this short blog post. The thrust is the song titled “Kabiosi” which we sang during the time of worship in song.
The leader informed us that the title “Kabiosi” originiated from a Nigerian dialect which meant “the God who cannot be questioned.” Standing there in that sanctuary, my eyes for the first time in several months were flooded with tears and the grandeur and splendour of God once again held a wonder that it hadn’t in a long time. It seemed true in my own experience that God could not be questioned. Job did attempt to question Him but with little success.
As I reflected on the goings-on of my own life and the many times I was tempted to ask questions particularly the question “why,” I stopped to mock myself for such silly, petulant behavior. All my struggles, the “unique” circumstances that sometimes overwhelmed me and triggered questions about God’s love and His good intentions toward me began to fizzle away.
If I believe Him to be God and have thusly committed my way to Him living as much as He enables in a way that honours Him, why would I question His ways? He invites me to question His word and He is more than willing to help me understand. But if I questioned gravity would He change it just for me? Trust is what He requires.
The most difficult time is when you have no idea whether God is near or far. It is that phase when you are no longer certain whether He is really for you because He seems so against you. It is that time when tragedy and misfortune after misfortune and tragedy confront you that you despair of life. It is that time in life when the truth has cost you so much you wonder whether it is worth it. It is that time when you’ve given up on God and deliberately chosen a life of sin to spite Him but somewhere deep within, even amidst your deepest questions, you still long for and yearn for Him.
I know not what tragedies confront you, what doubts assail you and what has clouded your vision of God and His majesty and grandeur. Today when you sing that song remember that He is still in control and like He asked Job “…where were you…”
Sing the song in resolute trust that God who cannot be questioned has ordained your steps is with you and you needn’t question His intentions. Only walk thou faithfully and you will see that He is a good and faithful God. He loves us with an eternal love and our trust is best demonstrated when we remain steadfast to Him when all else says otherwise. Selah.
June 2, 2013